1 Year Cancer Free

So 1 year ago we bid Elvira adieu. I guess you can say that I am now 1 year cancer free.  For some reason I am much more emotional about that now than I was a year ago.  I'm not sure if it was because when I was actually in the midst of dealing  with all of this a year ago I was just in pure survival mode or what.  I didn't really have time to be emotional about having cancer when I was faced with it a year ago.  It was so surreal - all the words that were floating around.  Kidney ... tumor ... bone scan ... cancer ... stages ... survival.  I just needed to survive.  And I did.  And now ... on the other side ... I can look back ... and appreciate just what that means.  I had kidney cancer.  And now I don't.  And it kind of freaks me out sometimes.  And I am blessed.