Mmmmmmmmmm Propofol

So Propofol is my new best friend!

I had my upper endoscopy this morning.  Apparently they now use propofol when they do the EGD.  So less chance of you waking up or of them needing to wake you up.  And I dreamed!  I have no idea about what - but I know I dreamed and it was pretty cool.  And then I woke up and I felt fine.  I wasn't hung over and after about 30 minutes I wasn't even that tired.

It went well.  Dr. Hutzenbuhler didn't find anything she was concerned about.  She took some biopsies, but expects them to be fine.  I even got some really cool pictures!  Yeah!  (I think that is the propofol talking.)

As they were prepping me for the procedure you have to answer all those medical questions.  That always takes forever for me.  Yes I have had previous surgeries ... ready?  No really ... ready?  And we list those.  Any family history of ...?  Yup - ready?  And today we had to add the whole discussion of  "Oh, yeah, and by the way - I have a renal mass that I'm waiting to have removed."  UGH.

And, of course, I had to have this conversation with several people.  First the nurse, then the anesthetist.  The anesthetist asked me about the note about the renal mass.  I gave him the run down.  He was very nice and re-assuring that renal cell carcinoma (if it hasn't spread) is very treatable.  Then he grabbed my hand in his and closed his eyes and said a silent prayer for me for just a few seconds.  I smiled and said thank you.  He left my curtained area.  And then ... for the first time since I was told about Elvira ... I cried.

The Wrath of Pam

I'm so frustrated.  They still have not scheduled my surgery.  I called twice yesterday and this morning my husband called.  Today we got two excuses: one was that Dr. Jalkut has my file and has to write something up for the surgery before they can schedule it, and the other is that he wants to see the bone scan before he schedules the surgery.

Whatever - both of these contradict what he told me in person on Monday.  He said if he could do it on Tuesday - he would.  He said that surgery would be scheduled quickly.  Two days later is not quickly in my book.

And thus ... The Wrath of Pam.

So I called Dr. Bloom and told on him!  :)  So now Dr. Bloom and his nurse have both called over there to inquire about when I will be scheduled as well.

If I don't hear from them in the morning tomorrow - all hell will be breaking loose. 

Well, kinda.  I have my upper endoscopy tomorrow morning.  I have to be at the endoscopy center at 8:00am.  So I will probably be quite out of it tomorrow morning and well into the afternoon.  HHHHMMMMM .... The Wrath of Pam on versed ... this could be interesting.

But I am going to be persistent ... cause that's how I roll.  You've basically told me I have cancer.  You know when the bone scan is - and you know that you will have the results the same day - so put me on the freakin' OR schedule!  The trick is how do I do this with some level of decorum - seeing as how they do hold my kidney (damaged as it is) in their hands.

And speaking of the upper endoscopy.  I would rather have my kidney out than have another upper endoscopy.  Why?  Because the last time I had one they had to wake me up in the middle of it.  So instead of not remembering the procedure - I have very vivid memories of it - not fun to be awake while they stick a camera down your throat and into your stomach.  Hopefully, because I have lost so much weight and because I have a different doctor, this time will be a much better experience.

So I wish I had a better update to give you - this is today's update.  Watch out - Pam is on the warpath until she gets this surgery scheduled.

Bone Scan

OK - so I have my bone scan scheduled for Friday morning.  My understanding is this scan can take several hours - a lot of that waiting around time involved in that.  So there goes my Friday.

So, obviously, not going to have surgery this week.  Still waiting for that to be scheduled.  Apparently, Dr. Jalkut needs to write something up for the surgery before he gives it to the scheduler.  He has my file in his office and is working on it is what I'm being told.

So I still have an upper endoscopy scheduled for Thursday morning.  We are keeping that appointment because I am still having pretty persistent chest pain and we want to get to the bottom of it.  I'm beginning to believe it really could be stress or anxiety ... so bring on the Xanax baby!  :)  To be honest, I would rather have my kidney out than have an upper endsocopy.  The last time I had one they had to wake me up in the middle of it because I was gagging too much and they couldn't get the camera down far enough - so they had to wake me up with the camera half way down and get me to calm down (yeah right!) and breath through my nose so that they could progress the camera.  Most people don't remember their EGD's - I remember almost my entire EGD with vivid memory.  Not fun.  But I do hope to get some answers to this chest pain.

Since I will not have had my surgery by this weekend - I'm thinking I should really send Elvira off with a bang!  Ride this kidney hard while I have it!  :)  We'll see what I can conjur up!