Monday, May 25, 2009
Sunday, May 24, 2009
I record my eating and daily activities in a website called The Daily Plate. After reviewing my daily intake - I average about 850 calories a day. On a day that I run I burn anywhere from 450 to 500 calories in a workout. So it appears as though my body is in starvation mode. Even if I wasn't running - 850 calories is still not enough.
I am totally conflicted here. Surgery worked. I am not hungry. In fact, I find that a lot of days I am actually repulsed by food. How weird is that? It is work for me to get 850 calories in. I feel like I am thinking about food all the time. Like I didn't think about food this much when I was taking in triple the amount of calories in a day. How crazy is that?
So I am also not getting in enough fluids - and that is not good when you run. I have had one instance after a big run that I was totally dehydrated. It was downright scary. I was dangerously close to passing out - I could see the black starting to take over my vision and I was having trouble breathing.
So if I don't figure out how to turn this around soon I think I might go crazy. I need to up my calories, but I want to do it smartly. I don't want to up my calories with empty calories - I want to fuel my body.
I also need to get in my water and fluids. This is just plain difficult. I feel like I get bloated very quickly lately. As a result, it can be hard to just choke down some more water, etc... It is jus so strange to now be faced with a problem like not getting in enough calories!
I took Thursday off because my daughters graduated from Kindergarten! So much fun!
Monday, May 18, 2009
- Ring The Alarm by Beyonce
- Womanizer by Britney Spears
- What A Girl Wants by Christina Aguilera
- Jesus Freak by DC Talk
- Jesus Messiah by Chris Thomlin
- Genie In A Bottle by Christina Aguilera
- Independent Women Part 1 by Destiny's Child
- Jumpin', Jumpin by Destiny's Child
- Bootylicious by Destiny's Child
- Glamorous by Fergie
- Hollaback Girl by Gwen Stefani
- Rich Girl by Gwen Stefani
- Bawitdaba by Kid Rock
- Cowboy by Kid Rock
- All Summer Long by Kid Rock
- Are You Gonna Go My Way by Lenny Kravitz
- American Woman by Lenny Kravitz
- Mama Said Knock You Out by LL Cool J
- Sweet Home Alabama by Lynyrd Skynyrd
- On The World by Mandisa
- Get Ur Freak On by Missy Elliot
- Work It by Missy Elliot
- I Will Not Be Moved by Natalie Grant
- If Today Was Your Last Day by Nickelback
- So What by Pink
- Get The Party Started by Pink
- When I Grow Up by the Pussycat Dolls
- Don't Cha by the Pussycat Dolls
- Livin La Vida Loca by Ricky Martin
- Shake Your Bon-Bon by Ricky Martin
- Pon de Replay by Rihanna
- Rock What You Got by Superchick
- Ignition by Tobymac
- Gettin' Jiggy Wit It by Will Smith
- Party Starter by Will Smith
- Switch by Will Smith
- This Is Who I Am by Third Day
- Life Is a Highway by Rascal Flatts
- I'm Like A Bird by Nelly Furtado
- Welcome To The Jungle by Guns N Roses
- Kiss A Girl by Keith Urban
- Just Dance by Lady Gaga
- Gunpowder & Lead by Miranda Lambert
That should do me for a while, but I am still open to suggestions! :)
Sunday, May 17, 2009
- Boomin' by Tobymac
- Catchafire (Whoopsie Daisy) by Tobymac
- Come On Get Higher by Matt Nathanson
- Feelin' So Fly by Tobymac
- Free to Be Me by Francesca Batistelli
- Hips Don't Lie by Shakira
- My Life Would Suck Without You by Kelly Clarkson
- Never Alone by Barlowgirl
- Poker Face by Lady Gaga
- Psalm 73 by Barlowgirl
- The Slam by Tobymac
So what are some of your favorite tunes to run or work out to? Put a comment on this post and let me know what music inspires you, or keeps your pace up, or is just lots of fun to get going to.
Thursday, May 14, 2009
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
But today on one of the support boards that I live on these days (shout out to all my OH Peeps! Holla!) someone asked a question that intrigued me. She asked us what percentage of your excess body weight have you lost? Well, at first I started having flashbacks to Jr. High Math class with Mr. Verkaik and my head started to pound. But once I took a deep breath and though through exactly what I was trying to calculate I decided to go ahead and figure it out.
So I want to loose about 130 pounds total. Of that 130 pounds I have lost 75 pounds so far. That means have lost 58% of my excess body weight! In just over 4 months! That's craziness!
Looking at the numbers that way gives me a whole new outlook on the situation that I'm in at the moment.
Another friend gave me encouragement this week on focusing on the long term changes that I am making for myself and that those are the most important things I can do for myself. Changing my eating habits, my exercise habits, my relationship with food in general. Those things aren't easy and I knew in my head they wouldn't be easy. But now as the rubber meets the road and I actually have to do it - it's just not always fun. But it is always good.
So here's a picture of me today in some of my new clothes that are regular sized. Yeah me!
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
No - not that kind of stall!
A stall in my weight loss. I know it's common - especially at this point in my weight loss journey. But that doesn't make it any easier. I haven't lost any real weight in almost 3 weeks. It's very frustrating because I still have much to loose. I am exercising (running no less), watching what I eat (mostly protein!), everything right - but it's like my body is saying "Um, I am totally not comfortable going any further than this because I don't really recall ever being below that magical number on your scale." Great! Thanks! I appreciate the help and support. Maybe that is why I am so focused on thsi 5K coming up - something else to obsess over - something I feel I have a little bit of control over.
I don't think I had mentioned it earlier, but this past weekend my mom took in 10 pairs of pants for me. It is so nice to have pants that fit me now. Most of them were literally falling off my behind. She took in like 2 inches on each side of these pants - it's amazing. Now I don't have to spend money on pants that I hopefully won't be wearing for very long. Yeah!
Monday, May 11, 2009
I woke my husband out of a dead sleep (poor thing has a cold and was in a Nyquil stupor) and this is how that went:
"Honey - wake up!"
"Look at me!"
"Look at me!"
"I am looking at you! WHAT?"
"I have a regular bath towel wrapped all the way around me!"
He gave me his obligatory smile and turned over and went back to sleep. So why wasn't he as excited about all of this as I was? Is it because I woke him up, or because he would have preferred it if there was something left to see?
And this weekend I have done something that I never in my wildest imagination ever thought I could do - much less want to do. I am signing up to run a 5K. I have found a race that is being run in 2 weeks on May 23 in downtown Raleigh. It is a fun race and that is what I want for my first 5K (does that mean there will be more???).
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
So here is a compare of me yesterday to me before surgery. I'm about 75 pounds down and flirting with a really big mile marker for my weight (unfortunately, I'm just not ready to share what the mile marker is just yet).
Is it just me or do those look like totally different glasses even? They look huge on my face now! I actually have sunglasses now that fall off my face if I'm at all active. I thought they were broken or something, but they aren't - they are just too big now. Who knew glasses could get too big?
Monday, May 4, 2009
Sunday, May 3, 2009
Friday, May 1, 2009
It's birthday season in the DeVries house right now. It starts on April 13 with my sons birthday. Then 2 weeks later it's my girls birthday, 2 weeks later is my husband's birthday, 2 weeks later my birthday, 2 weeks later our anniversary, and in there we have Easter, Mother's Day, and Father's Day, and this year - Kindergarten graduation.
On top of that, my parents sold their house and have moved into their RV (a.k.a. hotel on wheels) which is now parked in my yard. A week before closing on their house my mom fell down her stairs while carrying some boxes and broke her leg! So that whole transition has been a little difficult. Her sister (my Aunt Linda) came in and saved the day (or the week I should say) and that was incredibly wonderful. Mom is now camped out in the RV (no pun intended) and is getting around a little bit better than she originally was.
I have also been having to take my husband to UNC hospitals 3 times a week for some procedures for the past 3 weeks. UNC is about an hour away and when we go we are there until at least noon. He is wiped out for the day - gets a day to recover and then we are back at it. I don't mean to be vague about this issue - but I just can't share more than that at this time. :)
At work I have been assigned to a new project and I am swamped there as I get up to speed on what we are trying to accomplish. I have also started out the project by raising some rather major objections to the current approach and tool. This has not endeared me to my systems counterparts. That is OK with me. I'm not paid to be friends with everyone at work - I'm paid to analyze business requirements and make sure that the solution that is delivered meets those requirements.
Whew! This week I hit 4 months post-op! What a wild ride! I am sneaking up on 75 pounds down since surgery! I have had some major WOW moments in the past week related to my weight loss. The first is that I have begun shopping in "regular" sizes! No more plus sized clothing for me! Most of the clothes that I have right now are way too big for me. I have taken to wearing belts a lot. Last week when taking my kids bowling I forgot to wear a belt and my pants literally almost fell off! My kids were victims of a major crack attack. Poor things. :)
Another WOW moment was that I was picking up my girls from a birthday party. There was a mom there that I had not seen for quite some time, but we knew each other. I walked up to the group of moms and joined in the conversation. I sat there talking with them for almost 10 minutes when this other mom Arlene looked at me with her eyes wide open and said "PAM?!?!?! I knew I knew you, but I couldn't figure out who you were! I totally didn't recognize you! You look like a totally different person!" I am so not sure how to handle these types of moments. I am flattered, but I don't know that I'm comfortable being such a focus of attention.
And this is the last WOW moment - I promise. :) I had lunch yesterday with some colleagues that used to work at the company I work for. Unfortunately, they were laid off late in 2008. One of them I had not seen since well before my surgery. He showed up late to lunch and ran into our booth to sit down and was going around the table saying Hi to everyone. He looked at me and he said "If you weren't wearing your glasses - I'm not sure I would know who you are! You look totally different! You look fantastic!" Again - I am unsure how to handle that kind of attention.
So I apologize again for not updating my blog more the past few weeks. I promise to be better!