But I suppose in order to have an after - I have to confront my before. That is something I have artfully avoided for some time. Those who know me well know that I enjoy my comfortable encampment in the land of denial. I can stay there for quite some time. But part of this catharsis and journey here is to confront just how bad things have gotten in this area of my life. I have made excuses for all of it for a very long time. Part of my artful avoidance has been ensuring that I hardly ever make it into pictures. No lasting evidence - nothing that I am able to look back on and realize just how huge I have become. What pictures are taken of me are carefully staged.
So here is the unveling of my awful before. It is painful to publish these pictures, but I think it's an important first step for me to do before my procedure.

Hey, I didn't know you were getting gastric bypass surgery! A friend of ours had that done and lost loads. When is this happening?
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